I had a meeting with the Rabbi this evening and he said that after I finish my classes on April 15th, that we could talk about dates for the Beit Din and then the Mikvah.
Instead of G-d giving me a wife though, I should say G-d has given me a new life. It isn' t a perfect life (whose is?), but it is definitely a life that makes more sense to me.
I am so excited about this there are no words. I talked to him about adult Bar/Bat Mitzvah classes and he gave me the lady's email address to contact. Jewish study never ends by the way, if I am doing right by my religion, I will be spending the rest of my life studying, but that is okay as that is part of what I like about Judaism. You grow in this religion.
He asked If I am ready and my answer was "Well, I am definitely am not going back to Christianity". No offense to anyone who feels that is for them, but for me I just have learned too much history and basic Judaism to ever go back into a church again and feel Jesus is G-d. He just isn't to me. It is like I have been given too much information now and I would feel like I was totally faking it. It wouldn't even be the same as the first time I went to my synagogue and felt intimidated by Hebrew and unsure what was going on. (At times in Hebrew I am still unsure what is going on:). ) However, to go back to church would feel as if I was doing something wrong. It is in my heart now.
I also went onto say that Judaism has made me feel better about myself. I see myself as more valuable now. I see what I do in the world as more valuable.
So while it is fresh in my mind...he said I need to go back and review my journey to Judaism. This exact thing will be hard to put into words, I know the story in my heart, though. The difficult part will be getting it on paper.
Also, he asked me what I really like about Judaism and what I don't like. The "don't like part" I have put out there already as this blog has been at times a bit of a place to vent, particularly about things I have found frustrating as a potential convert.
For now I will sign off a very happy woman who will study hard and start working on putting this all into words.
22nd of Sh'vat, 5770 / כ״ב בשבט תש״ע